Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Okay I'm still here. It's my second post already. Will i feel like my body is going to collapse later? No idea. =X Anyway! If anyone here talked to me on MSN before, you realised that i have the word "simplicity" in my nick before. I think life can actually be very simple. In fact, I think it is! It's just that people are making it complicated and more complicated. That's why relationship between people is the most complicated thing, don't you agree? And please, by relationship i don't mean only BGR. But i suppose relationships can also be simplified. But our inner desires always desires for more. And that's what make things complicated. =X
Actually, who says simple things can't make someone smile? I myself would rather get simple nice gestures than huge big expensive gifts that would only get me ecstatic for a period of time and there's no nice memories left to keep. Then again, my mind isn't that powerful either. I forget stuff too. I think that is when the joy comes in when i suddenly starts recollecting the wonderful memories i had, and that makes me smile and wanting to get back to that very moment. It motivates me to try and recreate that moment again, and it makes me feel like cherishing the person who shared that wonderful memory with me even more. =D
I think i like feeling appreciated. I think that's a great joy to me! =D I think feeling appreciated by those whom you really do cherish is really an awesome gift to have everyday! It doesn't have to be a very big thing. It's just a small and simple gesture and it could go a long long way. I guess that's what i want. =D Then again, I really need to sleep soon! LOL. Goodnight! =D
Thinking of those days make me smile! =D We need not go back to that time, but just some quiet time together. =DAppreciation =D
3:41:00 am
Something is seriously wrong with me these days. Tired? Probably. But i'm beginning to think that it is not going to be a good excuse for me to be like this. Being tired doesn't give me the right to let me emotions overwhelm me and lost all control of myself and being mad or whatsoever. Sigh.
I think i'm stressing myself up over stuff. It's been a long time since i felt this way liao actually. Great improvement! =D But is that considered as being ________? Haha feel in that blank yourself. For some reasons, the word is just not there. I wonder, a few months down the road, would i still remember what that word is. But anyway, it isn't really a nice memory, so if i forget it, wouldn't it be better? =D
And i feel like it's dropping into a vicious cycle again. It seems that i am growing numb to it. Unknowingly, i didn't even realise how much i did today and how much free time i got. But thank God in between all this, there's still time where i was smiling widely from EAR to EAR. Hahaha. I think it's working! =D I'm starting to remember happy stuff and started smiling again! Yay! =D else i think i really no need to sleep tonight. It's 3am already, and i got to wake up real soon!! Think i should go and freshen myself up and wake up my idea. Till next time! =D
It doesn't feel nice to be able to feel that something is wrong, yet not able to know what exactly is wrong.Kudos to anyone who understands this blog post. =D God bless! =D
3:03:00 am
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Woah I finally got a chance to blog, and I actually did on the computer for it! =D Anyway, I had a thought in mind. Have you ever wondered, when things start to become a routine, does that means that you're too used to it that it has long it's meaning? Or perhaps it's just that you're used to it, and it doesn't seems so special anymore, yet at the same time if it's suddenly gone, you will feel all weird? Hahaha. Or maybe it's not as simple as being used to it, it's about being comfortable enough in the presence, perhaps a little too comfortable, and that's why it's like that. Does that counts as taking the presence for granted?
Wow that was a lot of questions. And I realised my brain isn't as active as it used to be when I blog. Haha perhaps it's cause i was totally worn out just now - I'm slightly better now, but still sleepy actually. It's okay though. =D Actually maybe it's because I'm perplexed myself by this, that's why I do not really have answers to it. Guess I'll just have to keep thinking! Just keep thinking.. Just keep thinking.. Haha sounds like finding Nemo. Okay till next time! (and i don't know when it will be..)
Nothing had ever matter more to me than this. =DAwesome! =D
12:34:00 am