Monday, March 31, 2008
1 min to april's fool day... got a feeling tis year's one would b quiet... no mood to crack much jokes anyway... i'm getting real crazy in class le... a little way too high in class... desmond should noe... uncontrollable... it's been sometimes since i got so high... i'm weird... ppl normally get high coz they dam happy... me? coz i trying my best to b happy... yet i 走火入魔 ba... tat's mayb the reason why i seems to have lost control of myself... haiz... once again... sry... =x
11:59:00 pm
Sunday, March 30, 2008
realised i think too much ytd... till my stand waver already... i shall continue to b myself... no matter wad happen... realised tat i have been tat busy recently tat i started to take for granted the things happening ard me as well... no wonder things turn out tis way... mayb i'll try to clear all my procrastinated homework 1st... den at least i'll can settle the work coming up easier... with much more time left to spend on the things i care abt... which i had sadly overlooked them... realised it was partially my fault... if i hadn't overlooked somethings den things wun become tis way... tat's why i seriously come to lyk the word balance... coz u can't take things too hard... but u can't take things too lightly either... a balance would assure u tat u dun topple over to 1 side... where problems would surface... time for some reflection on a working mind... wad have i done?!
P.S a good slp does help to make sure u are on the right mind to think... and tat is something which i lack most of the time... =x
P.S a good slp does help to make sure u are on the right mind to think... and tat is something which i lack most of the time... =x
2:46:00 pm
Saturday, March 29, 2008
i guess tis is the 1st time i'm posting so much in a day... being bad to others... others will hate u... being good to others... others would take u for granted... mayb it's not true to others... but tat is wad i see... lost... wad to do?
dun judge a book by its cover... let me change tat a bit... dun look at things only at the surface... the analogy of a ocean... it may look relatively calm on the surface but huge currents are going by below... u will nvr noe till u actually understand the ocean... juz hope by then... it's not too late...
dun judge a book by its cover... let me change tat a bit... dun look at things only at the surface... the analogy of a ocean... it may look relatively calm on the surface but huge currents are going by below... u will nvr noe till u actually understand the ocean... juz hope by then... it's not too late...
11:59:00 pm
My apologies. Someone is not treated as someone anymore long ago, so what's the difference from vanishing? The art of invisibility...
Waves aft waves rushing up the shore. The beach has been eroded much till it has almost nothing left. Then being filled up by the process known as landfills, but using what? Rubbish. Even after being covered up by a layer of sand, the rubbish still remains below. No matter how rubbish are hated, disregarded or unwanted, as long as there is one single person that actually still bothers about it, the rubbish would not do anything silly, so as not to hurt whoever it is. Challenges rushed to the rubbish trying to break the rubbish apart, but it will stay there firmly together to hold the layer of soil above it. That is landfill.
If it is my fault, I'm terribly sorry for it. I know i deserve it. But no matter what, i value the friendship and would never take that for granted, thus no matter what happen (and I'm stupid enough to not even know what had happened), no matter how things change, you will always be my friend, my di... Maybe i did not do enough...
Waves aft waves rushing up the shore. The beach has been eroded much till it has almost nothing left. Then being filled up by the process known as landfills, but using what? Rubbish. Even after being covered up by a layer of sand, the rubbish still remains below. No matter how rubbish are hated, disregarded or unwanted, as long as there is one single person that actually still bothers about it, the rubbish would not do anything silly, so as not to hurt whoever it is. Challenges rushed to the rubbish trying to break the rubbish apart, but it will stay there firmly together to hold the layer of soil above it. That is landfill.
If it is my fault, I'm terribly sorry for it. I know i deserve it. But no matter what, i value the friendship and would never take that for granted, thus no matter what happen (and I'm stupid enough to not even know what had happened), no matter how things change, you will always be my friend, my di... Maybe i did not do enough...
9:42:00 pm
the day someone couldn't take it anymore... the day someone will vanish from tis world... nobody gives a damn either... so be it... a pathetic idiot should juz vanish from the world...
someone juz like me...
2:55:00 pm
Thursday, March 27, 2008
hmm... the air con in class is much cooler today... shiok! but with great enjoyment comes great consequences... lol... adapted frm the 'with great power comes great responsibility'... well i keep wad i meant by tat under wraps for now... n for those who dunno... my class officially had air con on tue... but it wasn't functioning as well yet u see... didn't post abt it coz i was quite a pro procrastinator... even at blogging as well... wad to do?
mon stayed in store do hw... outside started to rain dam big... when i juz nice finish wad i planned to finish... the rain stopped... tue i went to eat wif wei kit... then it was going to rain... but i knew it wun rain as i got my umbrella wif me... for those who still dunno... whenever i have my umbrella wif me... it would purposely not rain... den w/o umbrella... when i'm not near any shelter... it would suddenly rain dam big... purposely make a fool out of me de... once again proven right... it didn't rain... juz drizzle abit... till we went in to eat... eat finish come out... saw the whole floor dam wet... still drizzling... knew a big rain juz came by... i didn't even get to see the rain tis time... LOL u might say tat drizzle oso can make floor wet... but wad if areas under shelter was wet as well? how big can the wind b to even drizzles can make areas under shelter dam wet? tornadoes or hurricanes? i bet there wun b any shelters liao if tat really happens...
then cross referenced frm wei kit's blog... mon when going wif him to MRT... we were at the station already mind you... when some guy asked us how to go to the MRT station... amazing huh... stunned... n told him here's the MRT station le... n he still ask... then 1 lady point to the gate... then he turn ard n went in... i was lyk... wth?? tat qn was abt the same as a famous qn... lyk asking how much $1 nuggets are... interesting...
as for the rest i wanted to blog abt... i forgot abt them... yes i m blur... mayb someone drugged me or smth... mayb... i wonder how though... anyway... here's the reason why i said with great enjoyment comes great consequences... take a look at tis...
nope... no one pee in class or smth... is juz tat it was raining when we were having chem xtra lessons aft sch... and then the rain got so big tat... our class air con oso decided tat it should rain in our class as well... tat's how much water it leaked... in like abt a min or so? calculate the rate of flow... LOL can't blame anything actually... wad u expect frm some air con probably bought frm some cash converter or karang guni man? why i make tat statement? here's the evidence...
notice the colour? we didn't paint it yellow u noe... neither did we pass some chlorine gas thru it... so... get the picture? and tis is the very air con tat i actually praised dat it got colder b4 it actually leaked... so now get wad i meant? go guess urself... test ur inference skills... more to common sense ba... thankfully i wasn't seating directly below... juz near it... jun han was the 1 tat got 'drenched' by the sudden 'rain' 1st... i didn't got anything except the water leaking was so much tat when it hit the floor... it started to splash abt... so my legs n beg got abit... so i decided to shift back a little... ms qui decided tat the chem remedial could not go on n let us off...
went to air store aft tat to once again prove tat math is a subject u nid to b clear in ur head... n dun 假厉害... dun careless oso... or else consequences would b undesirable... well i guess it's time for me to try sleeping early again? mayb... i try my best... :)
P.S i wun have problems hitting the 500 word limit for my eng journals homework if i can easily write tis much... LOL
mon stayed in store do hw... outside started to rain dam big... when i juz nice finish wad i planned to finish... the rain stopped... tue i went to eat wif wei kit... then it was going to rain... but i knew it wun rain as i got my umbrella wif me... for those who still dunno... whenever i have my umbrella wif me... it would purposely not rain... den w/o umbrella... when i'm not near any shelter... it would suddenly rain dam big... purposely make a fool out of me de... once again proven right... it didn't rain... juz drizzle abit... till we went in to eat... eat finish come out... saw the whole floor dam wet... still drizzling... knew a big rain juz came by... i didn't even get to see the rain tis time... LOL u might say tat drizzle oso can make floor wet... but wad if areas under shelter was wet as well? how big can the wind b to even drizzles can make areas under shelter dam wet? tornadoes or hurricanes? i bet there wun b any shelters liao if tat really happens...
then cross referenced frm wei kit's blog... mon when going wif him to MRT... we were at the station already mind you... when some guy asked us how to go to the MRT station... amazing huh... stunned... n told him here's the MRT station le... n he still ask... then 1 lady point to the gate... then he turn ard n went in... i was lyk... wth?? tat qn was abt the same as a famous qn... lyk asking how much $1 nuggets are... interesting...
as for the rest i wanted to blog abt... i forgot abt them... yes i m blur... mayb someone drugged me or smth... mayb... i wonder how though... anyway... here's the reason why i said with great enjoyment comes great consequences... take a look at tis...
nope... no one pee in class or smth... is juz tat it was raining when we were having chem xtra lessons aft sch... and then the rain got so big tat... our class air con oso decided tat it should rain in our class as well... tat's how much water it leaked... in like abt a min or so? calculate the rate of flow... LOL can't blame anything actually... wad u expect frm some air con probably bought frm some cash converter or karang guni man? why i make tat statement? here's the evidence...
notice the colour? we didn't paint it yellow u noe... neither did we pass some chlorine gas thru it... so... get the picture? and tis is the very air con tat i actually praised dat it got colder b4 it actually leaked... so now get wad i meant? go guess urself... test ur inference skills... more to common sense ba... thankfully i wasn't seating directly below... juz near it... jun han was the 1 tat got 'drenched' by the sudden 'rain' 1st... i didn't got anything except the water leaking was so much tat when it hit the floor... it started to splash abt... so my legs n beg got abit... so i decided to shift back a little... ms qui decided tat the chem remedial could not go on n let us off...
went to air store aft tat to once again prove tat math is a subject u nid to b clear in ur head... n dun 假厉害... dun careless oso... or else consequences would b undesirable... well i guess it's time for me to try sleeping early again? mayb... i try my best... :)
P.S i wun have problems hitting the 500 word limit for my eng journals homework if i can easily write tis much... LOL
11:47:00 pm
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
gosh i still have no time to blog abt wad happen ytd... dam tired... actually nth much oso... tmr still have training... a few more before i turn old enough to b called senior... nvm... i'll try to sleep early... :D
11:47:00 pm
hmm i predicted wrongly... the post abt sensitivity i may post it nxt time... mayb i wouldn't even have the need to talk abt it again... which would b a good thing!
wanted to post abt some 'interesting' fact tat happened today... but i dun think it's the time to do it now... since i'm 99.9% like a zombie... nodding my head away... best to ask me those qn u noe i confirm would say no... but i would still nod my head anyway... coz my eyelids weigh a thousand tons now... amazing huh... well i brought tis upon myself... and it's going to b hard redeeming myself frm tis traumatic experience... since it's like always waking up n reaching sch at 7am every morning... adults work frm 9am to 6pm... well for me... i stay in sch frm 7am to at least ard 7pm a day... soon i'll grow to like the number 7... not hate... wad for hate it anyway? ppl say 日久生情... so always 7... den should b like 7 instead of hate mah... but 7 ate 9 (789) wor... a very lame and old joke... though not lame enough...
dun wanna type more but in case i forget... i read on john's blog... abt the doomsday 2012... search domsday 2012 on youtube ba... somehow i dun wish it would actually happen... but if it really does then why not welcome it with a smile then... mayb i ate the wrong medicine lately... or mayb juz i'm turning crazy... but i seems kinda a lot more optimistic now then b4? though i was already kinda optimistic... mayb i'm juz pure crazy... as for other stuff... i'll post when if i still rmb... LOL
i've tried to sleep early! Great improvement! :D
lols... dam 自夸
wanted to post abt some 'interesting' fact tat happened today... but i dun think it's the time to do it now... since i'm 99.9% like a zombie... nodding my head away... best to ask me those qn u noe i confirm would say no... but i would still nod my head anyway... coz my eyelids weigh a thousand tons now... amazing huh... well i brought tis upon myself... and it's going to b hard redeeming myself frm tis traumatic experience... since it's like always waking up n reaching sch at 7am every morning... adults work frm 9am to 6pm... well for me... i stay in sch frm 7am to at least ard 7pm a day... soon i'll grow to like the number 7... not hate... wad for hate it anyway? ppl say 日久生情... so always 7... den should b like 7 instead of hate mah... but 7 ate 9 (789) wor... a very lame and old joke... though not lame enough...
dun wanna type more but in case i forget... i read on john's blog... abt the doomsday 2012... search domsday 2012 on youtube ba... somehow i dun wish it would actually happen... but if it really does then why not welcome it with a smile then... mayb i ate the wrong medicine lately... or mayb juz i'm turning crazy... but i seems kinda a lot more optimistic now then b4? though i was already kinda optimistic... mayb i'm juz pure crazy... as for other stuff... i'll post when if i still rmb... LOL
i've tried to sleep early! Great improvement! :D
lols... dam 自夸
12:39:00 am
Sunday, March 23, 2008
seeing how fast the seconds jump at the clock at the top of my blog really scares me... somehow it seems dam fast... 3 days of 'holiday' juz gone like dat... well at least i realised that my blog is good for punctuation practices... i always put '...' instead of punctuation marks aft n in between my sentences... so it's actually up to u all to fill them up... couldn't exaclty rmb how i got tis habit frm... now whether it's full stop or comma or wadeva i oso put... but at least i'm still not too addicted in using dat in my formal eng homeworkS... notice the BIG S down there... LOL
my nxt post should b on sensitivity... should b ba... as for now... nvm
my nxt post should b on sensitivity... should b ba... as for now... nvm
11:33:00 pm
Friday, March 21, 2008
training ytd... nah now it's 2 day b4... nth much to say... let's see how it turns out nxt training... 1 ear in, 1 ear out again... den it's SHOW TIME! looks like UDI ain't a good post to get... LOL... ASM is still the best post eh... most slack n most efficient de... it's for thick skinned ppl coz they can slack all they wan and end up getting ostracised but they oso dun give a damn... tat's y thick skin mah... notice i say looks like... so it's not a fallacy... it's juz wad things look like NOW... i wonder who i m referring to... air store is becoming some C_S_N_ already... juz imagine some teacher read my blog... i nvr say anything leh... fill in the blanks...
abh juz poured out his complaints to me when i started talking to him... amazingly i dun think it's no hope yet wor... but i dun actually bother whether i can change them... i rather change my own part... but the thing i care abt is the fun i'm gonna have with them... 'fun'... lol i sounded sadist... but definitely i'm not a sadist... why? coz frm longman dictionary... sadism means when someone gets enjoyment or sexual pleasure from being cruel or violent... yes enjoyment... but dun have the cruel... coz i wun make them suffer... wun b violent oso coz i wun even touch them... play games oso got enjoyment mah... oso not sadist... and plz... of coz not sexual pleasure! lol random... 0245... hmm time to slp... since today morning so quiet... good morning all!
abh juz poured out his complaints to me when i started talking to him... amazingly i dun think it's no hope yet wor... but i dun actually bother whether i can change them... i rather change my own part... but the thing i care abt is the fun i'm gonna have with them... 'fun'... lol i sounded sadist... but definitely i'm not a sadist... why? coz frm longman dictionary... sadism means when someone gets enjoyment or sexual pleasure from being cruel or violent... yes enjoyment... but dun have the cruel... coz i wun make them suffer... wun b violent oso coz i wun even touch them... play games oso got enjoyment mah... oso not sadist... and plz... of coz not sexual pleasure! lol random... 0245... hmm time to slp... since today morning so quiet... good morning all!
2:45:00 am
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
better today ba... at least feeling better then ytd... no mine is not called mood swing... well at least my wave has gentler gradient then some other people ard me... notice i use people... not person... means there is more then 1... their mood pattern is generally super steep gradient... zooming up and down... i bet if their mood 'curve', or mayb too steep to b a curve... are stock market graphs... woah... can turn ppl into millionaires overnight... and can bring millionaires to bankrupt overnight... dat's how steep their 'curve' is... unexpected rise n drop at anytime, anyplace, anywhere... a speech technique? o.O nvm... unpredictable ppl ard me... suddenly became so foreign to me... i doubt i can understand wif my mind going slow n steady... mayb juz slow... coz it can choke up anytime...
anyway today mdm yu did me a huge favour... thank you! zzz... wanted to go HOD room hand up 作文 to her... den HOD room no one... so went to find the pigeon holes... got her name wor... then put there lor... then somehow 9+ she called my house... i was still not home yet... coz i was in the store doing hw which i started at 5+... but i was on my way home already... she told my father i nvr hand up 作文... my father say i at sch... coz i told my mom i was in sch mah... nvr tell her when i leaving... then she dunno say wad our class got someone celebrate birthday i how can b at sch... got meh? den wad sch gate lock at 9pm... is it? oh n thanks to some 4-6 ppl who make fun of my name calling me 睡觉的朋... coz my name is sui peng... then she thought dat coz i always slp late den i slp in class dat's y they call me by dat name... which is so NOT TRUE... coz since when i slp in class b4? then she ask for my hp number...
she call me when i was already at my house the bus interchange... i was listening to music using ear piece so i nvr saw who call me n i pick the call up... she start by calling me mr wong... then i was wondering who call me... then she ask... "where are you?" at tat moment i thought it was my mom wor... but it's abit weird coz it didn't sound like my mom... den she say she's yu lin i suppose... not very clear... then i check hp... private number... den i ask... she really is yu lin... i told her i put in her pigeon hole... she dun even noe she has 1?! wth... =.= den say y so late i still outside... den i say i was in store doing hw mah... den she say dunno wad sch gate close at 9+... den she still say she climb past the gate a few times le... which i DUN BELIEVE coz she wears high heels n how the hell can she climb over?? i seriously doubt her ability to do so... LOL
thanks to her... i got attacked when i reach home... n i had to explain like mad den i was stop being attacked... wad to do? some HOD wanna act zai mah... try to deduce wad's happening when she only took over the class for like 2 periods? wth... waste my time sia... too bad tmr no hcl... if not i muz make things clear wif her... oh n i rmb i handed up the phy worksheets without doing the structured qns... i initially left them 1st den do other stuff n i forgot abt it n i handed up... wonder how SQ would kill me... he read blogs... ps ar mr quay... really forget...
and btw... it's 2.33 now... time to have some slp... eh wait... i nid prepare my uniform 1st... oh great...
anyway today mdm yu did me a huge favour... thank you! zzz... wanted to go HOD room hand up 作文 to her... den HOD room no one... so went to find the pigeon holes... got her name wor... then put there lor... then somehow 9+ she called my house... i was still not home yet... coz i was in the store doing hw which i started at 5+... but i was on my way home already... she told my father i nvr hand up 作文... my father say i at sch... coz i told my mom i was in sch mah... nvr tell her when i leaving... then she dunno say wad our class got someone celebrate birthday i how can b at sch... got meh? den wad sch gate lock at 9pm... is it? oh n thanks to some 4-6 ppl who make fun of my name calling me 睡觉的朋... coz my name is sui peng... then she thought dat coz i always slp late den i slp in class dat's y they call me by dat name... which is so NOT TRUE... coz since when i slp in class b4? then she ask for my hp number...
she call me when i was already at my house the bus interchange... i was listening to music using ear piece so i nvr saw who call me n i pick the call up... she start by calling me mr wong... then i was wondering who call me... then she ask... "where are you?" at tat moment i thought it was my mom wor... but it's abit weird coz it didn't sound like my mom... den she say she's yu lin i suppose... not very clear... then i check hp... private number... den i ask... she really is yu lin... i told her i put in her pigeon hole... she dun even noe she has 1?! wth... =.= den say y so late i still outside... den i say i was in store doing hw mah... den she say dunno wad sch gate close at 9+... den she still say she climb past the gate a few times le... which i DUN BELIEVE coz she wears high heels n how the hell can she climb over?? i seriously doubt her ability to do so... LOL
thanks to her... i got attacked when i reach home... n i had to explain like mad den i was stop being attacked... wad to do? some HOD wanna act zai mah... try to deduce wad's happening when she only took over the class for like 2 periods? wth... waste my time sia... too bad tmr no hcl... if not i muz make things clear wif her... oh n i rmb i handed up the phy worksheets without doing the structured qns... i initially left them 1st den do other stuff n i forgot abt it n i handed up... wonder how SQ would kill me... he read blogs... ps ar mr quay... really forget...
and btw... it's 2.33 now... time to have some slp... eh wait... i nid prepare my uniform 1st... oh great...
11:59:00 pm
Monday, March 17, 2008
something is wrong with me liao... time seems to fly pass me w/o my knowledge... things happening ard me n i dun seem to understand wad is going on... m i getting more n more blur or m i even more successful in isolating myself away frm the rest of the world? dun even noe wad i m doing sometimes oso... wad's wrong with me? can't focus on doing anything... can't seem to remember stuff... dunno tis dunno dat... i juz can't seem to focus... it's juz so hard to control myself... i'm losing control... going mad soon... haiz...
11:22:00 pm
好人难当啊! help others instead i get myself into trouble? wad weird logic? yea i wonder oso... but somehow it's juz beyond my conscience not to help... the only thing i can help is by moral support... but sometimes it really doesn't even concern me... i m weird...
guess i'm really deprived of slp? well i doubt anyone notice that i wasn't online the whole day ytd... doubt even anyone would wonder why i wasn't... so mayb all tis later oso no 1 bother to noe how come i wasn't onl9... well i fell asleep at 3+ aft my CIP... couldn't take the mass of my eyelids... so yea... slept till dunno wad time... my mom dragged me up... but to no avail... n i fell right back asleep... all the way till 1+ am... woke up den sat down there... replied 1 sms... then got back to slp seeing that there's no point for me to wake up at 1am oso... slept all the way till 10+ in the morning then wake up... 19 hours... great that number again... what number? no 1 cares oso... unless i have calculation mistake... i bet someone would care abt tat...
whole day i oso dunno wad i doing... somehow it juz flashed pass... did nth much productive... the only success is that i manage to totally waste my weekends again? true... somehow my 'xtra lessons week' seems to pass by so quickly... i nvr even treat it as holidays at all... nvr even hope for holidays oso... but somehow i lost the motivation to work... dun even noe when i lost it... nth much productive oso... how m i gonna survive aft getting my O lvl results? i wonder...
anyway... gotta work on the must hand in by tmr... or should i say today the hw 1st... then i go slp le... sry but i tried my best to slp early... well... to no avail... mayb is juz dat i nvr tried hard enough... maybe...
guess i'm really deprived of slp? well i doubt anyone notice that i wasn't online the whole day ytd... doubt even anyone would wonder why i wasn't... so mayb all tis later oso no 1 bother to noe how come i wasn't onl9... well i fell asleep at 3+ aft my CIP... couldn't take the mass of my eyelids... so yea... slept till dunno wad time... my mom dragged me up... but to no avail... n i fell right back asleep... all the way till 1+ am... woke up den sat down there... replied 1 sms... then got back to slp seeing that there's no point for me to wake up at 1am oso... slept all the way till 10+ in the morning then wake up... 19 hours... great that number again... what number? no 1 cares oso... unless i have calculation mistake... i bet someone would care abt tat...
whole day i oso dunno wad i doing... somehow it juz flashed pass... did nth much productive... the only success is that i manage to totally waste my weekends again? true... somehow my 'xtra lessons week' seems to pass by so quickly... i nvr even treat it as holidays at all... nvr even hope for holidays oso... but somehow i lost the motivation to work... dun even noe when i lost it... nth much productive oso... how m i gonna survive aft getting my O lvl results? i wonder...
anyway... gotta work on the must hand in by tmr... or should i say today the hw 1st... then i go slp le... sry but i tried my best to slp early... well... to no avail... mayb is juz dat i nvr tried hard enough... maybe...
1:14:00 am
Friday, March 14, 2008
continuation of my ball story...
The ball has decided, that even though it is always neglected, it will still persevere and not give up, in search of someone that would actually more sensitive to its feelings. Nothing can convince the ball that there is no such person in this world, absolutely nothing. The ball would never give up, and would continue to bring momentary joy to people who needed it. It just hope that it would not be regarded as annoying or irritating. Though things happened recently have seriously deflated the ball's morale, the ball will never give up the search...
No one would find out who the ball is except by chance, coz no one actually bother oso... they wun even noe that i wun post tis for nth... they juz thought i'm being lame or smth... No one trule understands me... I am the pitiful ball... =X
The ball has decided, that even though it is always neglected, it will still persevere and not give up, in search of someone that would actually more sensitive to its feelings. Nothing can convince the ball that there is no such person in this world, absolutely nothing. The ball would never give up, and would continue to bring momentary joy to people who needed it. It just hope that it would not be regarded as annoying or irritating. Though things happened recently have seriously deflated the ball's morale, the ball will never give up the search...
No one would find out who the ball is except by chance, coz no one actually bother oso... they wun even noe that i wun post tis for nth... they juz thought i'm being lame or smth... No one trule understands me... I am the pitiful ball... =X
2:08:00 am
Thursday, March 13, 2008
i dun exactly like march tis year... last year was feb... for those who noe wad happen... now tis year is march... den i better be careful nxt year the april liao... as for the weather... by right it should be pretty enjoyable... much better then the hot weathers... but with the conditions currently... it makes things worse... freezingpainoflife.blogspot.com... wad a really good prediction... it's really the freezing pain of life now... zzz nvm... bored... wish march would end faster... then means POP would b coming soon... dunno whether to look towards it or not... means O levels coming oso... such an irony...
wad's right? wad's wrong? dun ask me... i dunno... why are people like the weather nowadays? so cold so insensitive? maybe that's wad's really my blog url meant... freezing pain of life... =.=
*edit: oh yea btw... i hate guessing now...
wad's right? wad's wrong? dun ask me... i dunno... why are people like the weather nowadays? so cold so insensitive? maybe that's wad's really my blog url meant... freezing pain of life... =.=
*edit: oh yea btw... i hate guessing now...
10:06:00 pm
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
continuation of my ball story...
The ball can only continue bouncing, only upwards and downwards. That is all the ball can do. Factors around the ball always cause the ball's motion to change. The ball cannot control all this. It can only follow accordingly, no matter how unwilling it is, but it does not have the power to not follow. So what choice does it have? Though it can still keep on having the spirit of not giving up, sometimes it will just lose the motivation and feel like giving up. Maybe that explains when you play with a ball, no matter how good your skills are, it seems like they are not always according to what you want?
The ball has no face, thus no one can actually tell how the ball feels easily. The only way the ball can portray its feelings out is to deflate itself. By then, it might be able to attract some attention, after that no one will actually bother about it anymore, since it only serves as a momentarily worth of joy. Sometimes the ball would wonder, does anyone really care about how it feels? The ball may appears to be very lucky, to have so many people around it. However, these people are often busy with their own lives, and the ball is often left alone. So what difference does it make? Sometimes the ball really hope that there is someone there for it. No need to be always there, but at least most of the time, to go through thick and thin, or at least to be able to realise its feelings and cheer it up whenever it feels down. That is just the ball wants, it is not much. Why is it so difficult? Maybe it's just the luck of the ball...
The ball can only continue bouncing, only upwards and downwards. That is all the ball can do. Factors around the ball always cause the ball's motion to change. The ball cannot control all this. It can only follow accordingly, no matter how unwilling it is, but it does not have the power to not follow. So what choice does it have? Though it can still keep on having the spirit of not giving up, sometimes it will just lose the motivation and feel like giving up. Maybe that explains when you play with a ball, no matter how good your skills are, it seems like they are not always according to what you want?
The ball has no face, thus no one can actually tell how the ball feels easily. The only way the ball can portray its feelings out is to deflate itself. By then, it might be able to attract some attention, after that no one will actually bother about it anymore, since it only serves as a momentarily worth of joy. Sometimes the ball would wonder, does anyone really care about how it feels? The ball may appears to be very lucky, to have so many people around it. However, these people are often busy with their own lives, and the ball is often left alone. So what difference does it make? Sometimes the ball really hope that there is someone there for it. No need to be always there, but at least most of the time, to go through thick and thin, or at least to be able to realise its feelings and cheer it up whenever it feels down. That is just the ball wants, it is not much. Why is it so difficult? Maybe it's just the luck of the ball...
I am STILL the ball... =(
10:51:00 pm
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
今天是我第一次和雅虎的朋友们面对面交流。我希望把我成功的经验和大家分享，尽管我认为你们其中的绝大多数勤劳聪明的人都无法从中获益，但我坚信，一定有个别懒的去判断我讲的是否正确就效仿的人，可以获益匪浅。
让我们开启今天的话题吧！
世界上很多非常聪明并且受过高等教育的人，无法成功。就是因为他们从小就受到了错误的教育，他们养成了勤劳的恶习。很多人都记得爱迪生说的那句话吧：天才就是99％的汗水加上1％的灵感。并且被这句话误导了一生。勤勤恳恳的奋斗，最终却碌碌无为。其实爱迪生是因为懒的想他成功的真正原因，所以就编了这句话来误导我们。
很多人可能认为我是在胡说八道，好，让我用100个例子来证实你们的错误吧！事实胜于雄辩。
世界上最富有的人，比尔盖茨，他是个程序员，懒的读书，他就退学了。他又懒的记那些复杂的dos命令，于是，他就编了个图形的界面程序，叫什么来着？我忘了，懒的记这些东西。于是，全世界的电脑都长着相同的脸，而他也成了世界首富。
世界上最值钱的品牌，可口可乐。他的老板更懒，尽管中国的茶文化历史悠久，巴西的咖啡香味浓郁，但他实在太懒了。弄点糖精加上凉水，装瓶就卖。于是全世界有人的地方，大家都在喝那种像血一样的液体。 世界上最好的足球运动员，罗纳尔多，他在场上连动都懒的动，就在对方的门前站着。等球砸到他的时候，踢一脚。这就是全世界身价最高的运动员了。有的人说，他带球的速度惊人，那是废话，别人一场跑90分钟，他就跑15秒，当然要快些了。
世界上最厉害的餐饮企业，麦当劳。他的老板也是懒的出奇，懒的学习法国大餐的精美，懒的掌握中餐的复杂技巧。弄两片破面包夹块牛肉就卖，结果全世界都能看到那个M的标志。必胜客的老板，懒的把馅饼的馅装进去，直接撒在发面饼上边就卖，结果大家管那叫PIZZA,比10张馅饼还贵。
还有更聪明的懒人：
懒的爬楼，于是他们发明了电梯；
懒的走路，于是他们制造出汽车，火车，和飞机；
懒的一个一个的杀人，于是他们发明了原子弹；
懒的每次去计算，于是他们发明了数学公式；
懒的出去听音乐会，于是他们发明了唱片，磁带和CD;
这样的例子太多了，我都懒的再说了。
还有那句废话也要提一下，生命在于运动，你见过哪个运动员长寿了？世界上最长寿的人还不是那些连肉都懒的吃的和尚？
如果没有这些懒人，我们现在生活在什么样的环境里，我都懒的想！
人是这样，动物也如此。世界上最长寿的动物叫乌龟，他们一辈子几乎不怎么动，就趴在那里，结果能活一千年。他们懒的走，但和勤劳好动的兔子赛跑，谁赢了？牛最勤劳，结果人们给它吃草，却还要挤它的奶。熊猫傻了吧唧的，什么也不干，抱着根竹子能啃一天，人们亲昵的称它为“国宝“。
回到我们的工作中，看看你公司里每天最早来最晚走，一天像发条一样忙个不停的人，他是不是工资最低的？那个每天游手好闲，没事就发呆的家伙，是不是工资最高，据说还有不少公司的股票呢！
我以上所举的例子，只是想说明一个问题，这个世界实际上是靠懒人来支撑的。世界如此的精彩都是拜懒人所赐。现在你应该知道你不成功的主要原因了吧！
懒不是傻懒，如果你想少干，就要想出懒的方法。要懒出风格，懒出境界。像我从小就懒，连长肉都懒的长，这就是境界。
an interesting speech frm today's lesson... by 马云... the founder for the ali baba website...
让我们开启今天的话题吧！
世界上很多非常聪明并且受过高等教育的人，无法成功。就是因为他们从小就受到了错误的教育，他们养成了勤劳的恶习。很多人都记得爱迪生说的那句话吧：天才就是99％的汗水加上1％的灵感。并且被这句话误导了一生。勤勤恳恳的奋斗，最终却碌碌无为。其实爱迪生是因为懒的想他成功的真正原因，所以就编了这句话来误导我们。
很多人可能认为我是在胡说八道，好，让我用100个例子来证实你们的错误吧！事实胜于雄辩。
世界上最富有的人，比尔盖茨，他是个程序员，懒的读书，他就退学了。他又懒的记那些复杂的dos命令，于是，他就编了个图形的界面程序，叫什么来着？我忘了，懒的记这些东西。于是，全世界的电脑都长着相同的脸，而他也成了世界首富。
世界上最值钱的品牌，可口可乐。他的老板更懒，尽管中国的茶文化历史悠久，巴西的咖啡香味浓郁，但他实在太懒了。弄点糖精加上凉水，装瓶就卖。于是全世界有人的地方，大家都在喝那种像血一样的液体。 世界上最好的足球运动员，罗纳尔多，他在场上连动都懒的动，就在对方的门前站着。等球砸到他的时候，踢一脚。这就是全世界身价最高的运动员了。有的人说，他带球的速度惊人，那是废话，别人一场跑90分钟，他就跑15秒，当然要快些了。
世界上最厉害的餐饮企业，麦当劳。他的老板也是懒的出奇，懒的学习法国大餐的精美，懒的掌握中餐的复杂技巧。弄两片破面包夹块牛肉就卖，结果全世界都能看到那个M的标志。必胜客的老板，懒的把馅饼的馅装进去，直接撒在发面饼上边就卖，结果大家管那叫PIZZA,比10张馅饼还贵。
还有更聪明的懒人：
懒的爬楼，于是他们发明了电梯；
懒的走路，于是他们制造出汽车，火车，和飞机；
懒的一个一个的杀人，于是他们发明了原子弹；
懒的每次去计算，于是他们发明了数学公式；
懒的出去听音乐会，于是他们发明了唱片，磁带和CD;
这样的例子太多了，我都懒的再说了。
还有那句废话也要提一下，生命在于运动，你见过哪个运动员长寿了？世界上最长寿的人还不是那些连肉都懒的吃的和尚？
如果没有这些懒人，我们现在生活在什么样的环境里，我都懒的想！
人是这样，动物也如此。世界上最长寿的动物叫乌龟，他们一辈子几乎不怎么动，就趴在那里，结果能活一千年。他们懒的走，但和勤劳好动的兔子赛跑，谁赢了？牛最勤劳，结果人们给它吃草，却还要挤它的奶。熊猫傻了吧唧的，什么也不干，抱着根竹子能啃一天，人们亲昵的称它为“国宝“。
回到我们的工作中，看看你公司里每天最早来最晚走，一天像发条一样忙个不停的人，他是不是工资最低的？那个每天游手好闲，没事就发呆的家伙，是不是工资最高，据说还有不少公司的股票呢！
我以上所举的例子，只是想说明一个问题，这个世界实际上是靠懒人来支撑的。世界如此的精彩都是拜懒人所赐。现在你应该知道你不成功的主要原因了吧！
懒不是傻懒，如果你想少干，就要想出懒的方法。要懒出风格，懒出境界。像我从小就懒，连长肉都懒的长，这就是境界。
an interesting speech frm today's lesson... by 马云... the founder for the ali baba website...
10:09:00 pm
i have no idea why i type tis... but i did come up with this... not taken frm anywhere... but if u choose not to believe me... den suit u... i can't change u... so here goes...
A ball belongs to someone or something whoever or whatever it is. The ball should be glad that it gets to learn things like the art of stoning, and now, the art of invisibility. The ball was always tossed around, entertaining people, cheering them up, whatever, always until it loses its value and started being kept aside to rot. The surroundings have always changed, no matter how the was being punched, kicked, or tossed, it did not give up and kept being the ball it was. It can bring fun to people momentarily, till they enjoyed enough and decided that it is time they move on. It rolled about finding its place, but no matter where it went, it was only picked up, momentarily brought joy to someone, and then left behind. The ball is glad that it can master the art of invisibility, now being able to hide right in front of anyone, unnoticeable. People would be too busy with their own stuff to notice it, and therefore it has succeeded in mastering the art of invisibility. Right before your very eyes, it could make itself invisible and no one would actually even notice that the ball was around. Ain't that a great accomplishment for a ball?
When the ball is gone, people can still go on with their lives, what they normally do. Soon people will move on and forget there is such a ball. It would then be rolling around till the next person picks it up, and starts to enjoy for a moment, before he or she carries on the journey. It is all a cycle. A ball cannot speak, thus it would not complain, and it would just lie there, being unnoticed. A ball would always be a ball, this cycle would never change, would it? There would be no breakthrough, and the ball, would forever be the ball it is, without any complaints.
A ball belongs to someone or something whoever or whatever it is. The ball should be glad that it gets to learn things like the art of stoning, and now, the art of invisibility. The ball was always tossed around, entertaining people, cheering them up, whatever, always until it loses its value and started being kept aside to rot. The surroundings have always changed, no matter how the was being punched, kicked, or tossed, it did not give up and kept being the ball it was. It can bring fun to people momentarily, till they enjoyed enough and decided that it is time they move on. It rolled about finding its place, but no matter where it went, it was only picked up, momentarily brought joy to someone, and then left behind. The ball is glad that it can master the art of invisibility, now being able to hide right in front of anyone, unnoticeable. People would be too busy with their own stuff to notice it, and therefore it has succeeded in mastering the art of invisibility. Right before your very eyes, it could make itself invisible and no one would actually even notice that the ball was around. Ain't that a great accomplishment for a ball?
When the ball is gone, people can still go on with their lives, what they normally do. Soon people will move on and forget there is such a ball. It would then be rolling around till the next person picks it up, and starts to enjoy for a moment, before he or she carries on the journey. It is all a cycle. A ball cannot speak, thus it would not complain, and it would just lie there, being unnoticed. A ball would always be a ball, this cycle would never change, would it? There would be no breakthrough, and the ball, would forever be the ball it is, without any complaints.
I am the ball...
2:37:00 am
Monday, March 10, 2008
those who take things for granted would only noe the importance of somethings when they finally lost it... though some may not even bother...
on a lighter note... did i ever mention mr steven quay actually visit blogs? well he told us that in class... juz that he doesn't tags... but he said he couldn't resist the temptation to tag sometimes... maybe the fact that he has step down frm de discipline committee has made him friendlier? who knows? or maybe more free to even visit blogs... LOL i wonder whether he does visit mine... if he does den hello mr quay... i doubt so... cause i may not seem to b an obvious character in class... always hiding somewhere maybe? not that i'm shy or anything... but sometimes i prefer keeping my mouth shut... some may understand... i doubt the majority wun even noe why... well u see... another case of the majority isn't always right... okay weird links to the journal topics...
talking abt journals... i wonder whether we are really getting back our journal books tmr mah... which actually mrs tang promised us so... coz she couldn't actually mark finish... i hope so... b4 i loose the mood to do her journals... which would b disastrous... today seems like the last day i'm going to sorta slack... my xtra lessons begins tmr... 12-2 for chem n 3-5 for hcl... wondering how much time would b lost again when ppl juz can't seems to shut up... i wan make my travel time to sch worthwhile... no choice... i got to go since it's on a whole new chapter... i missed out abit on the chem due to the flight simulation thingy already... stupid bus came so late... might as well i finish chem 1st... ms qui promised to upload the slides... where is it again? sian got to chase her for it... more or less tmr i CNB liao... depends how fast i catch up...
HCL? no comments... HCL n geo r my headaches... not so much of HCL but geo... how??
on a lighter note... did i ever mention mr steven quay actually visit blogs? well he told us that in class... juz that he doesn't tags... but he said he couldn't resist the temptation to tag sometimes... maybe the fact that he has step down frm de discipline committee has made him friendlier? who knows? or maybe more free to even visit blogs... LOL i wonder whether he does visit mine... if he does den hello mr quay... i doubt so... cause i may not seem to b an obvious character in class... always hiding somewhere maybe? not that i'm shy or anything... but sometimes i prefer keeping my mouth shut... some may understand... i doubt the majority wun even noe why... well u see... another case of the majority isn't always right... okay weird links to the journal topics...
talking abt journals... i wonder whether we are really getting back our journal books tmr mah... which actually mrs tang promised us so... coz she couldn't actually mark finish... i hope so... b4 i loose the mood to do her journals... which would b disastrous... today seems like the last day i'm going to sorta slack... my xtra lessons begins tmr... 12-2 for chem n 3-5 for hcl... wondering how much time would b lost again when ppl juz can't seems to shut up... i wan make my travel time to sch worthwhile... no choice... i got to go since it's on a whole new chapter... i missed out abit on the chem due to the flight simulation thingy already... stupid bus came so late... might as well i finish chem 1st... ms qui promised to upload the slides... where is it again? sian got to chase her for it... more or less tmr i CNB liao... depends how fast i catch up...
HCL? no comments... HCL n geo r my headaches... not so much of HCL but geo... how??
8:56:00 pm
Saturday, March 08, 2008
tis was suppose to b up ytd ... so it's up now... wif ytd's date...
today morning went to hcl xtra lesson... knew it... they went thru de paper... yu lao shi was the 1 dat went thru... so she was like keep suaning us... as usual... well at least i passed the paper... screw up 长文缩短... dat's y... so she only went thru dat... as well as some practises... den she left le say wad HODs got meeting at some club wif swimming pool... zzz enjoying some buffet or smth... nvm... so mu jun took over... went thru abit... i ans 1 qn... so got something like a fortune cookie if i'm not wrong... inside got 1 slip of paper... it wrote... 'Calm down. Plan the direction of your work and the development strategy carefully.' somehow i found it quite true... manage to link up wif things happening ard...
well abt the rest of the day... i juz plainly slack thru it... somehow lost my mood when i dunno why... juz dunno why... dat's why i didn't blogged... nvm...
today morning went to hcl xtra lesson... knew it... they went thru de paper... yu lao shi was the 1 dat went thru... so she was like keep suaning us... as usual... well at least i passed the paper... screw up 长文缩短... dat's y... so she only went thru dat... as well as some practises... den she left le say wad HODs got meeting at some club wif swimming pool... zzz enjoying some buffet or smth... nvm... so mu jun took over... went thru abit... i ans 1 qn... so got something like a fortune cookie if i'm not wrong... inside got 1 slip of paper... it wrote... 'Calm down. Plan the direction of your work and the development strategy carefully.' somehow i found it quite true... manage to link up wif things happening ard...
well abt the rest of the day... i juz plainly slack thru it... somehow lost my mood when i dunno why... juz dunno why... dat's why i didn't blogged... nvm...
11:51:00 pm
Friday, March 07, 2008
oh for the 1st time... i'm looking for more work... i'm astounded myself as well... so dun a suprised... but it's kinda true... true for how long? i dunno the ans... but i'm somehow working today... m i? depends on how u define working as... physics term? definitely yes... but i forgot wad's de definition for work done... great... lazy check... did i mention i finally finished all my journals? 8 of them? at least 500 words ea... so it's like at least 4k words? i've got 3 more as holiday hw... mrs tina tang haven't mark finish so... she returning us on nxt tue when we go back for chem xtra lessons... holidays already chopped up by teachers... let's call it xtra lessons week instead...
i forgot wad i wanted to say... nvm... today lessons n O lvl chem SPA... Science Pratical Assessment in case someone out there dat see's tis go wif a "har?? face"... nvm... training aft sch... pathetically disappointed... wad else can i do? someone tell me? constructive comments only... those extra comments i suggest u keep them to urself... well i'm refering to some NCOs... i wonder who... to the sec 2s... pls get back to the usual form... at least give me some hope b4 i POP... for those who can't wait for me to go... i got nth to say... buck up!
well aft training i got 'lucky'... real " LUCKY "... wad happened? well i juz went to macs to eat wif warren, you zhe, wei kit n yu cheng... den i got my order n bring to the table... put it down... n de sprite had to fall n spill on my legs... of coz my shoes got it... great... i had sweet legs... den when i eating the fries... the curry had to drop on me again... my legs got it yet again... so i was wondering... thankfully i rejected the offer of chilli sauce n tomato sauce... if not i can't imagine wad else can i get on my legs...
aft my 'lucky' meal... took a train home... was standing at the door there... took train frm bishan to yishun... nth happened till yio chu kang... the door close n my dust cover wif my uniform got stuck in the door there... of all stations... it had to b yio chu kang n katib... de furthest distance apart... 'lucky' eh? wad's more 'lucky' is dat it had to b stuck at such a height... where i have to bend my back backwards... great... juz great...
last but not least... got home... somehow smth happened... my phone dropped... juz like wei kit's 1 at macs... everything flew out... bat... cover... not the animal bat of coz... it's battery... or cell... wadeva... thankfully i got those hp casing... the casing broke... nth happened to my hp... i HOPE so... casings r much cheaper den a new phone... i got my old new phone in the toilet bowl the last time... not long ago only... n i got tis phone... n it dropped...wth... hope tis dun get screwed... *cross fingers*
well wad to expect nxt? n i juz realise it's 1.11am now... i opened tis post for like 3h+... opps... it's a little late den i promised to slp... nvm... shall slp now... considering the amt of time i sleep for most of the days tis week... it's alot... 2h? 120 minutes? 7200 seconds? 7 200 000 000 000 nanoseconds? u see that's a big number... brr... it's cold... wad to do? my blog url is freezingpainoflife wad... =.=
i forgot wad i wanted to say... nvm... today lessons n O lvl chem SPA... Science Pratical Assessment in case someone out there dat see's tis go wif a "har?? face"... nvm... training aft sch... pathetically disappointed... wad else can i do? someone tell me? constructive comments only... those extra comments i suggest u keep them to urself... well i'm refering to some NCOs... i wonder who... to the sec 2s... pls get back to the usual form... at least give me some hope b4 i POP... for those who can't wait for me to go... i got nth to say... buck up!
well aft training i got 'lucky'... real " LUCKY "... wad happened? well i juz went to macs to eat wif warren, you zhe, wei kit n yu cheng... den i got my order n bring to the table... put it down... n de sprite had to fall n spill on my legs... of coz my shoes got it... great... i had sweet legs... den when i eating the fries... the curry had to drop on me again... my legs got it yet again... so i was wondering... thankfully i rejected the offer of chilli sauce n tomato sauce... if not i can't imagine wad else can i get on my legs...
aft my 'lucky' meal... took a train home... was standing at the door there... took train frm bishan to yishun... nth happened till yio chu kang... the door close n my dust cover wif my uniform got stuck in the door there... of all stations... it had to b yio chu kang n katib... de furthest distance apart... 'lucky' eh? wad's more 'lucky' is dat it had to b stuck at such a height... where i have to bend my back backwards... great... juz great...
last but not least... got home... somehow smth happened... my phone dropped... juz like wei kit's 1 at macs... everything flew out... bat... cover... not the animal bat of coz... it's battery... or cell... wadeva... thankfully i got those hp casing... the casing broke... nth happened to my hp... i HOPE so... casings r much cheaper den a new phone... i got my old new phone in the toilet bowl the last time... not long ago only... n i got tis phone... n it dropped...wth... hope tis dun get screwed... *cross fingers*
well wad to expect nxt? n i juz realise it's 1.11am now... i opened tis post for like 3h+... opps... it's a little late den i promised to slp... nvm... shall slp now... considering the amt of time i sleep for most of the days tis week... it's alot... 2h? 120 minutes? 7200 seconds? 7 200 000 000 000 nanoseconds? u see that's a big number... brr... it's cold... wad to do? my blog url is freezingpainoflife wad... =.=
11:59:00 pm
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
i muz b real crazy not to slp now... somemore i blogging now... looks like i'm still a well-tunned owl... but the only difference is i dun get to slp in the day... pathetic... the weather this days are perfect for sleeping... no nid air con oso can... mayb is the position of my current classroom... i seems to prefer it now... can we like shift down our lockers? lols... wonder when sg will start snowing... with such cold weathers every morning... mayb it's juz becoz i got to reach sch at 7am almost everyday... for lessons... haiz...
any1 can suggest any way to develop the love for languages? i'm seriously lacking the passion for languages but sadly the L1 stills stands there n i obviously have no choice... wad to do? so any1? i doubt there would b... nvm... but if there is... pls do share wif me...
deprived of slp nowadays... yet it's an irony that i dun go slp now... routine life... nth great to expect... juz dat i dun die in sch or smth? last week of sch... i seriously look forward to the 1 week holiday... not for the benefit of myself... but i nid the 1 week... even if there's remedials or should i say extra lessons... i dun care... i juz nid dat 1 week... tuning myself to accept tis way of going to sch... sooner or later i'll b seeing yishun only in the dark...
any1 can suggest any way to develop the love for languages? i'm seriously lacking the passion for languages but sadly the L1 stills stands there n i obviously have no choice... wad to do? so any1? i doubt there would b... nvm... but if there is... pls do share wif me...
deprived of slp nowadays... yet it's an irony that i dun go slp now... routine life... nth great to expect... juz dat i dun die in sch or smth? last week of sch... i seriously look forward to the 1 week holiday... not for the benefit of myself... but i nid the 1 week... even if there's remedials or should i say extra lessons... i dun care... i juz nid dat 1 week... tuning myself to accept tis way of going to sch... sooner or later i'll b seeing yishun only in the dark...
wondering when will the day ever comes...
3:47:00 am
Monday, March 03, 2008
for once i'm hoping it would b a test... for once... 路遥知马力, 日久见人心... i still believe in what i believe in... i'm still the same... still waiting...
10:13:00 pm
Sunday, March 02, 2008
i wanna blog actually... but no mood...
i showered in the freezing cold water... yet i dun feel anything... u dun give a dam abt my feelings dun u...
i showered in the freezing cold water... yet i dun feel anything... u dun give a dam abt my feelings dun u...
2:32:00 am
is not ur fault... it's mine... i have not done enough... lost that little bit of motivation left... haiz... m i dat bad?
1:31:00 am