There's a post below dated 8th May. Apparently i was typing it halfway and thus i didn't post it, but it seems like i have no way to continue that post as well, so might as well just post what i have. Do read, since my blog has been dead for so long.
I have been really busy, at the same time killing myself by sleeping later and later. One day if i really die young, don't bother to find out the why did i die so early, because it has to be due to all the lack of sleep. I feel terrible now. Emotionally and physically. It's the after effects of not being able to get to sleep yesterday plus the ever lasting emotional attacks i receive from both known and unknown sources. I'm confused - i don't know what is going on, i don't know what to expect, i don't know what is true and what is not... I don't know everything already. The weather adds to my stress, and apparently, it's killing me! -.- I don't like this; i serious don't! But what can i do? o.O
I realised that i am behaving more and more strangely recently too. I think maybe some people may not discover this, even those close to me. One thing that's quite a joke is that i get my conscious mind kicking in even when i'm dreaming! That proves that my mind is not even resting when i'm sleeping. Here's an example:
"I had a dream about me losing my slippers and some other thing. I was finding them back in the dream and i found that thing back. I continued to search for my slippers in my dream and then my mind actually told me to wake up, because as long as i wake up, i know my slippers will be back since i'm dreaming, which eventually i did!"
My mind actually knows that i'm dreaming when i'm sleeping! It happens more than once already. So i am actually sleeping with my mind awake! How nice! What good rest i'm getting huh. I think it's enough for now. I should go try and get some rest before i wake up and start doing some stuff that i have to clear ASAP again. Sigh.
It takes a whole deal of courage just to love someone... and it takes a whole long period of hurtful time to forget someone you love...Asphyxiated
1:38:00 pm