Are you in a situation where the words someone said mattered so much to you, so much more than the exact same words said by another person? If yes, sometimes don't you feel weird how you react to exactly the same words said by different person? o.O I realised that to some people, some words just matter to them a lot. Don't you agree? o.O They can sway their emotions high up, or likewise, all the way deep down.
Anyway, this December has been the weirdest month. It just feel so different! Christmas wasn't like Christmas. I forgot about it until i heard people shouting 5, 4, 3, 2, 1! And i was still wondering what they shouting for, until i heard Merry Christmas! LOL! I am like having 'suicidal thoughts' too! Don't be scared, i don't want to die yet, but they say sleeping late is actually 慢性自杀. Guess what? Some nights i don't even sleep at all! Haha. And i just survived Wushu training with just one hour of sleep yesterday! =.= Now i really don't feel good. Isn't that considered as having 'suicidal thoughts'? xP Come on it's time to wake up! 2009 is going to be over soon!!
2009 is quite a long year. It feels so long, because there are so many things that happened! Sad incidents, happy incidents - it's as though my mood was on a roller coaster ride. I shall not reflect back on them, since it will probably spoil my mood by remembering those sad incidents. Although some of them remains vividly in my mind, it's still better not to think about them right? :) It was an eventful year, and it's about to come to a close. How would next year be? Like sec 4 where it's all study, study, study and nothing else? I doubt so, and i don't want it to be like this. I don't want to exclude some things out of my life, else it'll be an empty life, just like how i am in this December. I can mask it up all i want, but inside will be still as hollow as ever. The only difference is that i'll not end up in some pathetic state, that's all. And i promised i wouldn't be. :)
It's up to me to be strong, to be happy myself - else how would i be able to be the support? o.OLooking forward to break the 'eves curse' of mine. :)
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