Sunday, August 16, 2009
This blog seems like it's going to rot. It's not that i am busy in anyway - more like i'm busy slacking. My tagboard is quite dead too, but at least i know that there are still some (i don't really know how many) silent readers out there. Nobody knows what to tag anyway since most don't really understand my post.
Anyway, i think i really need a place to release the stress build up inside over the days. A lot of things happening and it's all going in and no way of going out. It doesn't really feel great when i end up emoing, because i tend to curl up in some 'defensive position' and it's as though the whole world owes me. I end up creating problems for people close to me, and i don't want that - what for?
I think i must be very very irritating recently. I wanted to help other people, but instead i think i created more trouble by emoing rather than helping. -.- Oh and i gave more chances of nightmares attacking me, and the frequency of them coming is increasing till it gets to figures like 3 nightmares in a short time of only 5 hours? Crazy. End up i will have headaches which gets me more irritated. I really need to calm myself down. Does anyone have any suggestions? o.O
I am sorry for hurting you and giving you extra stress when you clearly have more than enough stress already. I need to calm down!Fluctuating emotions. My keyboard's screwed. -.-
12:50:00 pm
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Happy 44th Birthday to Singapore! xD4.44pm is a nice time to start this post, since it's the 44th Birthday of Singapore. I wasn't particularly hyped out during the previous years - only looking forward to the parade at night and hanging out the national flag when i was young, but apparently this year feels a little different.
This year, i came to realise there's actually people who wants to stay in Singapore a lot, but because their parents have to migrate to some other country, they are forced to follow along. Perhaps this doesn't mean much to the parents themselves, but i suppose it means a lot to the children. They are separated from their friends, the familiar environment, into a totally new environment. Of course it is possible to get new friends when you're overseas, but the question is, is it the same?
Of course there are different opinions. Some may say they would like to migrate to other countries, but how many of these people will ultimately regret? That's a question only they themselves would know when they experience it. Seriously, i can't fathom why must parents force their children to migrate with them?! Argh!
How i wish it is just like in Economics - Everyone have the freedom and choice to choose the combination they want.Don't rejoice/worry. I'm not migrating.
4:44:00 pm
Friday, August 07, 2009
I have left my blog rotting for two weeks. Sorry to all the 'silent readers' out there. Haha. It has been quite an eventful week, with the submission of Project Work Written Report first draft, rehearsals for today, and many many other stuff going on simultaneously. Problems appearing simultaneously too - apparently you can't just solve them as how you solve simultaneous equations using your graphic calculator. Many times i wanted to blog, but somehow due to a sudden change of events, i lost the mood to blog. That's why my blog is left in this vulnerable decomposition state and rotting.
Today was the celebration for the 44th National Day. I was the parade commander for today and i was told i did good, which i assumed they aren't lying. xP Though it was rather a small scale parade, and i had to stand there for quite a period of time (not as long as other parades i have been to before, like NCC DAY), it's no mean feat to be able to shout while having some phlegm stuck in my throat. What a good way to clear my throat huh. :) I didn't pay much attention to the rest of the segment of the celebration, mainly because i was trying to type a 8 sms long message. What a time to be thinking about marbles huh. xP
8 of us, Gong Yi, Jefferson, Jun Jie, Si Min, Wan Yu, Desmond, Alvan and I went Northpoint to eat after that. I didn't expect they would agree to come to northpoint since it's super convenient for me - nevertheless they did. We went to foodcourt to eat after walking rounds in northpoint, and i ate the nasi biryani and i was so full till i skipped dinner (not only because of that). We had an enjoyable lunch and then Si Min, Wan Yu, Alvan and me went around northpoint while the rest left. It turned up we had some fun while 'touring' around northpoint. :) We went to timezone too! The 2 girls insisted that we play, so i pulled Alvan along. We played quite a few games that are actually meant for young children, but i guess it's still quite fun! xP Timezone had this buy $20 get $20 free, so apparently we could play quite a number of games. Not bad! Quite fun! xD
Came back home and knock off on my bed. Had a full time realistic nightmare that shook me terribly - much worse than a horror movie. Woke up and went right down the mood roller coaster and somethings happen and it went up again. xP No no no, i am not having mood swings. :)
The clouds of tomorrow blocked my view of the sky, which i unkowingly blame the clouds, but i know it's not entirely their fault. :)Misunderstandings
11:04:00 pm