Sometimes life plays a few little tricks on you, but that's absolutely fine with me if it's just little tricks. I am used to them anyway. But why must things be so unfair to certain people? Is it true that if they get something, they must give up something? That's how fair it is? I don't know, but i certainly hope i could change some things. But how?
It's cutting, bit by bit, flesh by flesh. I really wish i could just do something, and whatever the outcome i imagined it will be will just all come true; for once, i just need it to happen once! I meant, i believe whatever happened before is real - it's not just a dream that will be gone once awoken. I believe whatever is happening is due to stress, fatigue and probably many other factors that are branched out due to the two main factors. I meant like often, it's kind of hard to listen to what your heart wants, especially you are the type that has such a dominating brain that will even sway your hard. Mental stamina, i must say, is the hardest to train up. Things like fatigue and stress can easily overcome whatever mental stamina you have.
Why are things happening like this? I don't enjoy seating by and watching things go on like this. This is not a serial drama that happens. I know what i see in serial dramas are not true but this is not - this is 100% true. Am i like destined to sit by and watch things happen without me able to do anything? Okay yes probably i did something, but i feel it's not enough, because the situation is aggravating. I don't even dare to imagine what can happen if i let this carry on like this. It's not just me to sit back and watch things happen like that. I just can't bear to sit back and heck care. HOW?! HOW?! HOW?!
Before you want to take care of someone else, make sure you are fully able to take care of yourself first. :)Wish we could just fly in the skies. :)
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