First post in May, after not posting for quite a significant period of time. That is the problem with me. I don't put my thoughts into actions, and then sooner or later, i will forget them - now at an exceptionally fast rate as not really sure why, but my brain just tends to forget things easily. Some things continue to stay in my mind though, they will just never get out. Same goes for project work - i forget stuff if i don't write them down somewhere. Then i go ponder over it all over again - such a waste of time.
Didn't quite realise i wasn't online at all yesterday, until Jefferson asked me what happened to me over the weekend. Haha. He seemed to realise that i was always online but somehow i wasn't for the two days. Oh well. Thanks for his concern! :) I wonder whether he read my blog and will see this or not? Lols. I think i need to assert control over myself, and make my thoughts into actions as soon as possible. If not great plans will also turn out nothing because they weren't even carried out. Bleh.
Yesterday went for Simulator 5. It was 'great', 'great' time screwing it up. Thankfully the instructor that took was extremely kind, and simulators are normally not graded. I just couldn't concentrate there and then. I think perhaps i am overstressed already, much thanks to last minute preparations... AGAIN! This cannot happen for my sixth (nope, it's not going to be my last) sortie, or else it will really be the end of me in SYFC. Where's my clear mind and the energy in me? o.O *searching in progress*
Through this four months, though it may not be long, i seemed to have learn a lot, not academically, but in other areas. Don't really feel like going into details, because i don't think i can explain it well either. Bleh. xP I made many baseless conclusions, hurt people, realised i was wrong and then it all started over again. I grew to become more understanding of the situation now, and i can guess more accurately. I shall understand even further! xD
We do not learn from experiences, we learnt from processing our experiences. -John DeweyIt takes skills to do so. xP
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