What goes up must always come down.Must that sentence up there really be true? Will things just fade away as time goes by? This 'gravity' is seriously so strong, whatever momentum you got at the start might not last long enough to counter it. It takes lots of effort to maintain it high up there, and sooner or later you'll get tired at times, but there are people that make it, so it isn't really impossible.
I think rushing into things shouldn't really be the way to do it. But in my eagerness to maintain things high up there, i always subconsciously did that. In the end, either things go haywire or someone starts to get jaded and it will drop. I am sucked in so deep, so much so that i could not pull myself out of the situation sometimes. I really hope more sleep would help, best is to cure all this.
I am loading myself with commitments. I do want them, but it's really not easy to take up so many things. Am i right by doing all this? Looks like i really got prioritise and see where i stand. Actually, it's not that i can't do it or unwilling to do it, it's just that the clock is ticking away so quickly, and you can't control it. In addition, I am still a pro procrastinator that keeps leaving things behind. I am really losing motivation already. WHERE'S MY MOTIVATION?!?! RAH! I guess i need to sleep...
I hope i am not forcing you in anyway... but yet i still feel like i am. Am i?Complicated. Such an irony.
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