Such a rare chance that i will blog so early. It seems that i have been blogging everyday since Thursday, as though i suddenly revive back my blog at such a rapid rate. Rapid again...
I am disappointed by myself. Why do i like to rush into things so frequently? Why am i so impatient? I am so easily swayed here and there, and i put my very best into everything, but is that the cause why i am overdoing somethings? I think i overstep the boundary already. That is why i am feeling the aftereffects of my actions. I still think that i think too much most of the time, which will link and link further away because i will be swayed to think more and more. That's crappy.
I got to learn how to control myself. If not, i will start to escape again. This morning already like that. I don't see the point of waking up, but somehow i force myself to, because i hate escaping. I always let myself dive deep into situations, and i always ended up drowning myself in them. After which, i would save myself - it takes time, and when i am successful, i will avoid things again. Until some time later when things fade off, i will dive deep down again. It's a vicious cycle that will not stop unless i do something to it. I agree with that, but question is how? o.O
My greatest mistakes should be my impatience and my stubbornness to accept changes.Phobias are scary. Sorry. =X
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