I think i am a bit of a paranoid - yes that is just me. =X I think if i tell you how paranoid i can get last time, you will laugh your teeth out - even i laugh at myself about that. My brain is just too active, even when i am physically worn out to the maximum, as long as i am not dead/asleep yet, my mind will still work on intensively. I tried my very very best to control it nowadays, and well, at least i made improvements. I need some help on that. I know i am troublesome enough to be asking for assurance and so on, but i am just human, so i am not exactly perfect in any sense.
I couldn't help thinking when i am stranded in mid air normally. Because i do not know the reasons, i may jump into conclusions to the negative side easily. Perhaps why negative side is because i don't really have that much confidence to jump all the way to the extreme positive side - sometimes i do actually. When something happened negatively, of course that will incline me to think of the negative side, instead of any other reasons. By staying aloof, you are further confirming my negative thoughts, like you are trying not to care about it already or anything.
Roller coaster ride is tiring. One moment is this, and the next moment everything changes altogether. Once or twice i may not think of anything, but if it happens more than that, then i will start to think again. RAH! Why can't my mind be good at thinking for my Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Economics, GP and Project Work? o.O I am glued to this roller coaster ride - just can't seem to bear to take myself away from it.
The effects of some small things is really miraculous.I'm going mad... =X
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