I should be posting about this yesterday but somehow i didn't. I was sort of racing against time you see, and perhaps someone knows the reason why. xP
Alright. I am back from Wu Shu camp yesterday afternoon. It's quite a short camp i must say, compared to those long 3D2N camps that i used to have, where you report early early in the morning of the 1st day. CHS NCC AIR people should know what i mean. :) Anyway, the camp was quite okay - not too boring but i must admit it's not really very fun either. There was quite a bit of stoning time, which i never fail to find something to do - thankful for that. I am learning my routine well and fast enough. YaY! I suppose my only problem is to be less stiff - can't really help it except trying to relax as much as possible. The training was tough to a certain extent, since i chose not to slack a lot, so i ended up sweating a lot. xP I think that's all for the camp. I don't really have much to say about it.
I am losing faith. I am losing trust. I am losing motivation. Crap. I am losing it! RAH! I don't know what to say. I tried my very very best to control myself, but i just can't seem to not be led away by the things i see. I don't even dare to use the word misled rather than led away because i am not even sure of stuff anymore. A moment everything seemed so true, the next moment everything seemed so blur. I am losing the sense of security already, because i can't fathom what are you thinking. You are just so mysterious, and i dared not probe because i don't want to enforce any stress on you, like as though i am questioning you or something. All i want is just you to be happy, that's all. But i don't even know what you want. Are you really happy like this? I just don't understand. What do you really want? Maybe i am just not the person to hear you out.
You will only enjoy the most when you are working for something you truly want.I need assurance from you. =X
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