I guess it all boils down to tomorrow. Looking back 4 years ago, when i was waiting for my PSLE results, I didn't even feel any tension till the last minute. Just recently last year at the release of Chinese O level results, it was only until we entered the Auditorium and the Head Of Department keep scaring us with how 'well' we have done, then i feel the stress.
No matter how i keep myself busy, even a little free time will lead me to think about the release of results tomorrow. Looking at the clock, i will unconsciously use mental sums to calculate how many hours left to the release of results. It's like keep ringing in my mind. NJC or AJC? That's another big question.
I think i focused too much between NJC and AJC. I never really planned for any other choices. What if i couldn't even make it to AJC? I guess when that happens tomorrow (of course i hope it won't), probably i'll be at a loss and staring into blank space, fighting to hold back my tears. I want to laugh tomorrow; not only tomorrow, but all the time! xD
It will be a difficult decision... one that will determine how i spent my 2 years.Guess i can only wait.
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