Great. They actually really put my name up there in today's TODAY (not on purpose... Mediacorp want to name it TODAY what can i do?) newspaper. Don't be mistaken... I'm not one of the top students - not even close. It's just 1 line of comment and they have to even put my score down. Weird thing is the reporter asked quite a lot of questions. Never mind. Quite a lot of people know my results already anyway, since they were all asking. I'm actually glad that at least they care to know my results, and not go like 'YES, SP screwed it up!'. I'm thankful for that.
Well, i guess time really changes everything; i must get that in my head, and accept it. Somehow, i just can't really accept some things, for some reason. Guess my primary school teacher was right, i really can't play through my Secondary school years. Last minute push did help, but not that well. I suppose i got what i deserved? No offence to anyone who didn't do well, it's just my personal regret. I hope this thing won't happen two years later, when i fail to get my application approved. I seemed to have a high source of motivation now, but who knows for how long? Old habits just seem to stick along, and not wear off with time. It is these very bad habits that cause my downfall and of course i want to get rid of them, but things are easier said then done. Oh well.
Gosh. I think i seriously think too much sometimes - like how i spent 2 hours (it's already 2+ in the morning, going to 3am) thinking till now. Oh well, maybe because of probability... ahh never mind. I'm lazy to explain. I doubt anyone will understand anyway - I'm super lousy at explaining myself at times. Guess i shouldn't be a fishmonger... Oh well.
I can't believe i actually sort out my thoughts in the mere 2 hours!Maybe is because the recent large positive side override the negative side. Optimistic RULES! xD
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