gravity pulled me down physically and mentally. physically down with flu + sore throat + fever and mentally down with all sorts of negative thoughts. why can't math be applied here? negative times negative = positive? or even modulus function would be fine. talking about modulus, since when modulus is in emath syllabus? never mind.
i'm like killing myself. despite having flu + sore throat + fever, i never go see doctor, never take any medicine, and never rest also. i don't even know what i'm doing. maybe i don't have a sound mind now. maybe.
sometimes i hope i'm thinking too much. sometimes i hope i don't. how come most of the time when i hope i'm not thinking too much, i am. how come most of the time when i hope i am thinking too much, i am not?
and do people really enjoy 口是心非? that's where procrastinating comes in. but that's a promise to yourself. but when you promise others, and you don't hold your promises, you're not only hurting yourself but others. who like the feeling of being cheated? oh maybe some people do. but i know i don't. that's why people's secrets are safe with me. ask me not to tell anyone and i won't. but there are people who will tell, and i know who they are.
it's not only promises. i hate people who are double faced as well. on 1 side, you tell someone that you don't like someone. how bad he or she is etc. then on the other side, you tell he or she how bad that someone is etc. that's the worse. but even by saying how bad someone is, saying how you don't like him or her, and yet on the other hand still gets along with him or her very well, that ain't very good either.
okay never mind. off com and watch how hitler can win a bird in soccer. opps. i meant Germany winning Turkey in euro match now.
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