lost the mind to think... it's just as wad i expected... can things juz STOP happening in the way i expected?! expected good things all dun happen... expect all the bad things... i dared not say all... but most happened... wad is tis?
i seriously should stop guessing... is thinking optimistic wrong? i agree with the greater the expectations... the greater the disappointment... so should i juz think pessimistic all the time? then if it end up better then i still may have surprises? rather then getting disappointed? is tat so? is being who i m really and let some take me for granted good? should i totally dun care?
thought it over clearly... NO! i am who i am... nth is wrong with thinking optimistic... nth is wrong with being disappointed... i'm numb to that... the most get upset over a period of time and that's it... get on with it... wad for change the whole of myself to some other personality juz because of one or should i say a group of incidents? there are still people ard that differ... at least i hope there is... even there isn't... why not? i juz be me and happy tat i am me... and i'm definitely not talking abt the scene in rush hour 3... nvm if u dun get the meaning for rush hour 3...
so tat's it... all cleared... once again... one last thing... when i dun care abt something on the surface... it doesn't meant i really dun care... u nvr noe wad i m doing and how much i wish to care... is juz tat now i changed my strategies... some mayb able to notice ba... who noes?
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