200th post... so wad? feel like i'm learning history or smth... how to say i'm not old? even my life is like history... is juz dat the events are different... but it's like a similar pattern... too similar tat i can find exactly the same things tat happen n i can even predict tat it would happen... n they did happened... juz dat the characters do change... the vicious cycle... repeating n repeating itself... like some ghost keep haunting me or some nightmare or wadever... juz dat it definitely ain't good... wonder when can i be liberated from these ropes tat tie me up... it's like a precious rope entangled... only way is to untangle it... no cutting... it's juz no easy way out... once again... very lost... i becoming 言而无信 liao... should give myself a few slaps... 欺骗自己, 欺骗别人... 罪不可赦... 真该推出午门斩首... 一了百了...
我只会让人x了我, 而不会自x... X=??
P.S i nid a good sleep... i dunno wad happen... but sry for dragging till so late...
1:11:00 am