whateva i'm gonna write is what i feel abt my OWN marks... i'm not trying to hao lian if u score worse den me or whateva... dun juz curse me dat i even scold myself when i score better den u... or even mock at me dat i score so lousy... but in fact... i dun really care... what can i do? is ur chioce... ur MOUTH!
today report late day again... whole day going thru scripts... dam hardcore hypnosis... make me almost wan to fall asleep... i juz like de part where mr fourier ang went thru de top 10 odd sentence dat ppl wrote for report writing... namely a few like "we will decorate ourselves" and de all time favourite "we will play ourselves and in turn will neglect the seniors"!!! lols... can't rmb de others... eng was disastrous... i've got an all time low grade which i nvr got for my 1st 3 terms... in fact, it's way lower den de 1st 3 terms... den was SS... expected to b disappointed... my essay got 3/12 coz i wrote only 1 paragraph... den SBQ gt 16/18!!! totally wasted due to de essay... gone case la... hope my history can get high enough... den was chem... i'm dying already n i had to get such a low score again... yea right whatever... recess started late... ended late as well... den physics... killing enough to noe dat i nvr got A1... though i got A2... mayb my SPA will pull me up to A1... overall A2 (most likely)! cool... i manage to get top 3 in class... rmb hearing mr ng said got 1 A1 n 2 A2s for overall of de whole year... but so what? top 2 in class dosen't meant top 3 in de lvl... wat's more is juz 1 subjects... d others r enough to pull me way down already... Amath... got A1... juz feel dam song i win beng heng by 1 mark... coz i got 77 at 1st n he got 76... den he found out dat mr lee for qn 8 full marks is 5 he gave 4 only... den he was so happy dat he got 77! he thought he same as me... but i oso saw... so i told him back i got 78! n he was like of coz sian diaoz... mayb i nth to shiok abt liaoz... so juz finding anything lor... dat mark almost gave me a shock... my overall would b 74 for de whole year for Amath if i dun hav dat mark... 1 bloody mark to A1 lehs... den finally mr lee added... 1 mark den i got 74.7 as overall... better round up or i really can get into a shock... so what? i still lose to a lot of ppl... it doesn't makes a diff...
tmr is like geo den history den dunno wat we do when bio den CL... n once again i dun c any light in front... no hope at all... i'm gone... screwed... whateva... i'm like possessed in the exams... other den eng... all de other papers i can't finish! wth... when ppl can shake leg aft finish... y so slow? i've got no idea... lack of slp? motivation? determination? concentration? i better find out de cause real fast! my O lvls CL is like coming liaoz... what can i do? now is only settle for prelim 1 nxt year... hope for de best... though often de results comes vice versa... fate likes to play me? ok i challenge it!
had training today aft sch... for dose sec 1s dat got bronze... dam long time n dunno wat to do... dun feel like typing all we did... i juz rmb we wasted a lot of time... yea right... den aft dismissing dem... went to de sec 2s for PDS... den suddenly ernest painkiller wears off i think... n he was in real pain... his whole body cramp up... so yong hwee n me juz keep telling him to relax... den i massage for him so dat his muscles can b not so tense up...
i dun wanna type liaoz... coz someone has to add to my troubles n pissed me off!!!
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